I’ve had this rumbling sensation in my stomach over the last 3 weeks on where to settle into Washington D.C. But I only started to notice it in the past few days. Symptoms include feeling and getting sick, being unfocused, and temptations to eat junk food in order to occupy my mind space. I found ways to attribute each symptom to something = allergies, sickness from my niece, not having a workable environment, weather changing, etc. But when things pile up like this, I take the opportunity to listen. Observe. Become present.
I have a strong reason to be here logically - a beautiful/fun/amazing woman I’m dating is here. And I want to spend as much time as I can with her to futher our relationship. So mentally I’ve been doing whatever possible to find a location in D.C.: scour Craigslist, daily appointments to see places via Realtor, randomly visit apartment buildings nearby and ask for vacancies. And also taking the time to be social by going to new places, visit old hangouts, and visit friends who’ve lived here or that just came to live here. But not in one space besides hanging out with my girlfriend has been truly exciting. Not one thing has popped out to tell me “hey Nirav - this is home”.
When I sense and observe this, what I find is that the Universe is not giving me any indication that this is what I need right now. When I say that, what I really mean is that things start coinciding for me when I’m in the FLOW. Synchronicity starts occuring at rapid rates and I feel empowered. And I’m not finding that happening. So if I want to feel amazing and be happy, I know that I have to trust my gut. Because when the gut feels good, I feel good.
My gut tells me I should try something else out. And see where the synchoricity, community, and high energy are for me right now. No long term commitments. But never forgetting about how I can spend the most time with this amazing woman in my life.